Well my laptop is now running on Pizza Hut's Sattelite :) .... but all I can do is view websites because the commy's blocked virtually every port except 80 .... I'll try to find a way to tunnel through another server tho..... :)

Ok, im trying very hard to cheer myself up.... its somewhat working..... I guess I would have to say I am passively suicidal again.... which really isnt a threat... more of just a thought pattern.

I will get through this.... I'll do it on my own if I have to... I just wish that I didnt have to.... oh well.... ill live I guess.... just please pray for me