I'm in trouble... My depression is getting really bad. I am literally on a downward spiral. I have never been straight suicidal but I have been passively... That's when I ended up in the hospital. Right now my thoughts of death are worse than then. I'm scared honestly. And I can't see my doctor till the 13th. If I dropped this bad in a week what happwns in another week and a half. I'm really scared and the worst thing is there is no one around me that cares....