I just got off the phone with Tiff. I honestly feel alot better now. We talked like old friends.... it was really a great feeling. Who knows where things are going? I know that God is in control.... and I know that I am answering alot of questions in my mind right now. The panic may not be gone, but I do see light..... no matter where that is. I just really needed to get things right between Tiff and I .... I cant stand being alienated from someone who means so much to me. Im glad we're friends again. And all it sits at is we'll talk every few days.... down the road we may hang out.... right now I need to take care of me.... she needs to take care of her. Who knows who God can bring into my life during that time. I just feel better.... I needed this day.