I can't understand this. Tonight (well, last night) was really good. I was able to relax... nothing really big on my mind. I've now been laying in bed for about an hour and a half and I just simply can not sleep..... I dont think it was 30 secs after my head hit the pillow that I started thinking about Kim. I know that there are reasons why I dont understand this but it sure doesnt make it any easier. The thing that really hits me so hard is that its not that everything reminds me of Kim... its how everything reminds me of how I connected with Kim.

All I know is that I really need to get some sleep. My friend, Kat, and her little boy, Hunter, are going to church with me tomorrow and I need to be up in 3 hours.

I just wish I knew how someone I knew for such a short time has left such an incredible hole in my heart and how I can miss her so much.