How is it that I can fail this much and still be alive? It's no wonder that no one loves me or thinks that I'm worth fighting for. I honestly dont understand how God still loves me, even though I somehow know He does.

It'll be ok at some point, I'm sure. I just really need that vacation that I'm not able to take now. Actually, I need alot more than that.

*sigh* I'm going to try this sleep thing again..... So far it hasnt been working so well.