God said that He would provide.... and I really hope that this is all just a way for Him to show me that He means it.

For the last year or so I have been able to live without having financial stress. It has been hard but not deadly like I have experienced my whole life. I found out some things today that.... well, they scare me. It appears that I have not been making quite as much money I thought I was.... The worst part is, I dont even really know what I'm talking about but I just know that it's boiling down to the "cutting back on things" scenario and somehow finding thousands of dollars at the end of the year.

This is killing me.... I've lived the last year of my life happy. I was not in financial stress and things were good... they weren't easy and I did and still do have to watch what I spend... and its hard in this area.... but at least I wasnt worried about people calling me and wanting money and being past due....

I just dont want to go back.... I just dont! :(