I got this message last night and it really hit me.... Im glad to hear these words because, to me, it means that I'm accomplishing at least some of what I want to. Anyway, I changed some things in it to conceal the idenity and etc and I asked this person if I could post this and he said it was ok. Maybe this might speak to you too?

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I don't like to talk about it, but before I was "out" to anyone, I did have a friend that I met through another friend and he happened to be gay and he killed himself because he couldn't handle the pressure anymore. I question my actions with the whole situation because he confided in me and I freaked out because I wasn't ready to admit I was gay also....if I wouldn't have freaked out he may still be alive today and that is something I will have to live with for the rest of my life. Shortly afterwards I made several attempts myself until I realized I could make a difference to someone else.

I am the man who stopped attending church because the doors were closed on "mykind" and I realized I couldn't serve their God because I didn't want to be anything like them if it meant turning people away.

The thing that means the most to me is your support and encouragement. Although it's to late for me to go back, I am glad that there is someone there for those who are like me and that in itself means alot to me.

You Bob, are going to make a difference in your life and make an impact to God's family, you Bob are a true Christian at heart.