I dont know why I let external circumstances affect me so much.... especially when I know I have no control over them. Today was an ok day... then it got really good.... I actually would have to say I was REALLY happy for a good few hours of the day.... and then just a few words can completely destroy that.... maybe I just am basing things on the material world which will never make me happy.... but its the lonliness that I wish would go away....... *shrug*

I still am doing better than I have been recently, so I guess thats good.