I wish Jesus would come today. I don't want to go on. What little I have is falling away it seems. The people at my job don't like me.... All my utility companies hate me because I can't pay my bills on time because I don't make enough.... I have no special person in my life and it seems I would have nothing to offer anyone anyway. The only thing I have right now is a great church and the friends I have from that church.... But its not that I can call them up and just go hang out and that's not because of them... Its because of my job.... My schedule doesn't allow me to do anything at all.... Plus I don't make enough to pay my bills, let alone do something to relax.

Since Saturday I have been on a downward spiral and I'm scared. I'm really hurting right now........