Well Tanya called me a little bit ago.... I guess I feel a little better now that she explained why she's kinda ignored me.... she's having some problems.... but the bad news is that she confirmed that her and Eli's Dad are getting back together..... this really bugs me.... *sigh*

I really wish I could just cut the whole last year out... ... well, maybe 2.... go back to when I was in school and Tiff and I were really close and new that we were only going to become closer.... those were good times.... and I miss them bad.... now we sit here screwed up in the head.... *sigh* ... ok, i'll stop for now....