I really am starting to miss Eli.... but maybe now that he's seeing his dad it's better that way. I dont know what to think of the whole situation and frankly, its not my place anyway... Tanya hasnt really called me like she used to... I havent talked to her in a while... maybe there is a reason for that... I'm not sure.... but I am really accepting that "it is what it is" .... Maybe its best for all... I really dont know. Tanya was a lot of fun to be around and I lost those days and I really love Eli to death... but if whatever happens is best for those two, then great... it's well worth it.

Today at IOP I found out that Thursday is my last day for sure. Next week I'll be able to get back to my regular schedule.... I'm looking forward to that.

Well I set myself an 8pm bedtime tonight so I can catch up... lets hope I can keep it.