I am at the data center now and just finally waking up. This could be another long day with seeing what I have to do... it could take a while. I really hope that I can get out of here at 4 today... I'm just not with it... but either way, this is my job, and I will do it to the best of my ability.

I really need some serious prayer. Truth be told I was crushed when I found out tanya went back to Eli's dad.... it really just broke my heart.... and its not because "shes not mine" but because... well, there are alot of reasons that I need not go into... I'm worried.... No, this isnt why im in bad shape... I was starting to go downhill before that for some reason.... Im just tired of the same old stuff.... and then when the bad stuff repeats it's self it hurts even more. I dont know what the future holds and Im not paitient enough to wait... I could be if I had friends who wanted to do stuff.... no one understand how bad I want it to snow. I need to get up on the slopes badly... thats really the ONLY thing I can do.... and the only thing I dont mind doing alone.

Im gonna get back to work... I just needed to take a min to blog. Please continue to keep me in your prayers. Thanks!