I really dont think anyone cares about me anymore.... I really dont. So I was supposed to hang out with a friend tonight.... just about the only friend that I sort of have left.... and, well.... yea, no sign.... Stuck at home again.... bored again....

I cant understand why I keep having faith in people that they are going to keep their word.... people break it all the time and yet I decide that I'll trust again... and again.... and again..... why cant I just learn that people never say what they mean to me? Then I've got people that get upset the few times that I dont believe them.... how am I supposed to?

I'm really feeling crappy emotionally right now.... and its the time where I would like to really talk to someone.... but I dont have anyone.....