Well, I got my stitches taken out... all looks ok with the cut but still no feeling in my finger. My Doctor said if the nerves grow back at all, I'm looking at at least a year before I notice anything. He reffered me to a hand surgeon tho so we'll get that checked out there.... but this just adds more fuel to the frustration that I have that I simply need relief from... finances. My doctor visit today literally took the last bit of money I had.... and my next pay check is already tied up in paying bills that I have been past due on for a while. So its good that I'm going to be able to get some of those caught up.... the bad news is I will STILL be carrying a balance on my electric bill and my phone bill.... Simply put, I need to somehow increase my income or reduce my costs... So far, neither one is looking like an option. There simply is nothing I can cut out to reduce my costs.... the only "discretionary" bill I have is my cable bill.... and that is now under $20 a month.... otherwise, I dont do anything or buy anything that I can cut out. My health insurance isnt covering expenses that many insurance companies cover.... this specialist visit alone will be $40..... and who knows where we go from there.... I now have $600 in copays for ER visits regarding the entire finger ordeal...... what else am I supposed to do? Right now I just feel like sitting in a corner and crying. I am becomming such a burden to my family... always having emergencies that I need to borrow money for becuase I simply dont have it..... I feel like such a burden to so many people.... and its so hard for me because all I want to do is help others.... I want to help those with a burden.... I dont want to be the burden.

Please keep me in your prayers. I have been quiet about this for a while but I really seriously need a way to increase my income. It's really getting bad :(