Why do I have to be such a horrible and worthless person? Why couldnt God have just created me as someone that He could actually use. I really am not worthy of serving Him... nor will I ever be. I want to, but I just am not the person that He needs... There are so many people that are so much more pure than me -- people that sin less. What good am I to a perfect God? I sin so much and I screw up constantly. There are so many more people out there that are both smarter than me, more likeable than me, and more pure than me.... What good am I in comparison to them?

I really feel like crap right now. I'd be better off thrown in the sea and left to drown and to be forgotten of.