Its 3:15 am.... I expect to be up a while longer.

I'm frustrated. I still wish I knew what was going on in tiff's head. I miss her so much but at the same time I wonder if I need to be just growing away from her. She just doesnt seem to want to do enough to keep me. I'm still second best and I dont like that. If she would have just told me she had a boyfriend when I first met her I would have just moved on and wouldnt have had time to get attached. Now I am attached. I guess everything happens for a reason and maybe her and I are supposed to be together.... still, I just wish I had a commitment in my life... whether from her or from someone else. I need that in my life.