Its now 7:40pm ... I was just released from the emergency room. Again, panic attacks. This time I had other problems.... I had a lot of twitching. Apparently the problem is now affecting my nervous system. I am apparently way out of control. And of course I'm down because I feel like I ruined everyones christmas. Its not fair that I have to go through this shit. Tho I wouldn't act upon it, I really wish I was dead. Seriously tho... I am not depressed like previous times. Wishing I was dead is not a result of depression. I'm just really heartbroken. The lithium and prozac is doing its job quite well. Now we just gotta get through the anxiety. Ill be ok.... Its just that I gave my heart away and got it back in parts.