I am now on my way to westmoreland hospitals er because they have mental health services. They will evaluate me and determine whether or not to keep me. I was able to get a hold of matt and he is going to take care of everything at work. I feel so bad. I feel that I've put too much on matt and patty at work... I feel like I ruined everyones christmas. My parents aren't happy about this mental health thing but I need to take care of myself. I wish they were supportive.... I need them. I don't have the person I need in my life right now so I really need someone else. I have my bible bear that steve (my manager) got me for christmas with me. I'm glad I have that... I needed something to replace the wolf tiff gave me. I'm scared... I've never been like this before. Please pray for me. If I do get admitted you can call my mom for updates. Thanks for your prayers and support.