I prayed a bit last night and over night God calmed me down. There is a REALLY good chance that I am jumping to conclusions. It's really rough for me sometimes because of my past. I'm not trying to use that as an excuse but it just always has seemed like bad stuff happens to me in relationships and I get worried easily. The thing I have to understand is that whatever is happening is happening for a reason. I love Tiffany with all of my heart. I want to spend my life with her and I know that we would be happy together... and I know that she knows that too.... so I am probably jumping to conclusions. This is really rough on me.... but I'll make it. I've been through worse. God will take care of me. Tiff, if you are reading this I want you to know that I love you with all of my heart. Everything that I wrote wasnt that I didnt or dont trust you but more of a panic.... I have no reason to doubt you. Please understand that this is hard for me. We will be happy together and I want to do whatever to make this work. Please email me or call me soon. I love you!
So anyway today is a long day for me. I work 8am to 7pm and then I leave from there to go to our Christmas party. Hopefully I can relax and just have a good time.... Im glad that it is today.... I need something to cheer me up. Ideal situation would be Tiff showing up at Pizza Hut around 6 and saying "I'm here... lets go to the party" ... I know the chances are slim... but it would be nice.