I am so emotionally numb that its not even funny. Nothing is exciting me anymore.... I'm just merely exsisting. I am struggling again with my "problems" as a result and..... I'm just not happy. There has been so much stress in my life recently that I think my mind has just built up a defense again.... the only way to avoid feeling pain sometimes is to go numb.... and in a way, I think thats what happened. So much has happened to me... I almost lost what I need the most and ive just built up a defense. I hate this simply exsisting feeling.... it's misserable. I want to have some excitement... I want something to make me happy....