I put so much effort into trying to be with people and hang out with friends and drive hours to see them..... I put other things on hold to be with people..... Its what I want to do... I want to spend time with those people that mean the most to me and I realize that it cant always happen... other things get in the way..... but when there isnt anything in the way and the other person makes no effort to spend that time with me it starts to hurt pretty bad. I want people to want to be with me.... but unfortunately I dont have anyone in my life that feels that way. Its good enough for everyone I know to get an email from me now and then.....

Well... I have a long drive ahead of me.... so I guess I have plenty of time to finish crying..... Its been a while since my face has seen tears so I guess its about that time.