Today has been a down day for me. Dont really know whats up... just dont feel right.... mom dad and I were going to the wagon wheel and tiff called so I was a bit excited but she was just calling to say she was ok and she was at work so she couldnt talk. I asked if I should stay up and wait for her to call me later... she said not to... so I guess another day goes by that I dont really get to talk to her... I really could have used it today. I'm debating maybe going to a movie tonight... there are alot of movies I'd like to see.... just dont know if I feel like going alone but I used to do it all the time so why not.... I guess I could always just go to bed too.... *shrug* Been thinking about my loneliness... maybe its time I change from being single to being single and looking.... I had the guts to talk to a completely strange girl once and it worked out well.... it could work again, couldnt it? I guess I'll have to put more thought into that.... I just would really like to have someone special in my life that really wants to be with me. I know God will take care of it.... in His time.... these are just thoughts on my mind. I miss the days when I had down days like this where I could just call up that special someone.... We'll see what happens.... my mind is just thinking alot... has been for the past few days.... which is why I guess I have been so quiet. No matter, God will take care of all of this..... it's all gonna be fine.....