I had an odd dream last night.....

I was the guest preacher at my church.... and I got up and just went blank.... I didnt say anything... I just stood there... nothing... absolutely nothing.... then a friend took me out for ice cream and talked to me.... I came back and I started preaching up a storm.... then when it came to reading scripture I couldnt find it... I kept flipping through my Bible.... I couldnt find it... just like it wasnt even in my Bible... then my mom came up and read the scripture for me...

I know that God wants to use me in a great way... I just dont know what I can do... I'm so worn out and down about everything.... its like I dont have much to be happy about and its dragging me down... I dont know exactly what that dream meant but I guess it kinda gave me a little bit of hope.

As for today, I woke up depressed again... I'm down... and anxious too which definately isnt good. Today is my first day working at Jason's house.... not that I'll be doing much different than I do in VA but still a little nervous....

Either way, I have to finish getting ready.... Please continue to pray for me.