Well Im getting ready to leave Lock Haven... cut short by Pizza Hut of course.... i'll be so glad when im done with that place... It wasnt a bad place to work... the people.. well most of the people are great... but I just need my time back.

This weekend was... interesting. When I first got here I acted like a pure idiot/baby... I dont really know why... I didnt even realize it until I thought back on it... I think that really changed Tiff's attitude toward me for a while... then later last night things got great again.... Tiff and I were feeling that closeness again.... then she started crying and I dunno what happened then... we both went to bed and thats where it stands. She is still sleeping ... I'm debating waking her up or not before I leave... nm... she just got up... well... I dont want to leave...

I guess I just keep thinking of the way things were before I screwed up in May... it's tough for me to deal with.... I do realize why I did what I did.... and its not good.... it was stupid but I realize now why im scared of people lying to me... especially people who care about me.... its because its been done to me alot.... but thats all im going to say about that.... that is something that I, myself, need to work through. None-the-less, its why I did what I did in May... and I regret every min of it.... EVERY bit of it....

I'm still looking forward to a second chance.... I think it may be on the horizon.... TIff still has some issues to work out... as do I.... I'm doing my best to be right beside here through it all... and she's doing the same. Im confident that I'm where I need to be.... its not an easy place to be... but im here either way.