I guess maybe I better leave Tiff alone if I'm gonna be like this.... sure she did her share of screwing up... but Im the one screwing up bad right now..... I dont want to... and I dont think she wants me to leave either... but for now... maybe its best.... I dunno... I'm debating it.... she really hasnt done anything to hurt me.... in fact it's been rather good.... but I just put too much pressure on her... whether I mean it or not... and whether its my actions or not.... I just need alot of prayer and guidance right now.... This may or may not be best... I guess I just need to pray about it.... eHarmony just sent me an offer for 2 weeks for $9.95... maybe I should try that?