Im not doing so well again today.... I tried so hard to list what im thankful for... like my new job, my family, God.... but I just cant.... I dont feel like it.... I was playing a game at my grandmothers.... everytime it was my turn someone had to tell me... then I kept putting the wrong pieces down... I'm just so out of it today... I feel left out... Im not.... but I feel like I am.... its not good... I used to live for holidays at my grandmothers... not anymore.... its just another day... every day is just another day.

Tiff sent me a text message to wish me a happy thanksgiving and also told me what she was thankful for... I could barely respond... I'm just so out of it.... there is something wrong with me... something very wrong... :(