Maybe I should just give up? If someone wants to talk to me... let them talk to me.... maybe I should just quit caring about people and quit trying to contact them and be friends.... maybe thats what I need to do... just stay out of other people's lives and shut up.... I bring everyone down with me.

I'm not doing well... my doctor's office (not my doctor), my friends, just no one... no one cares.... screw it all.... I really am getting suicidal again... but I know that falls on deaf ears too.... forget about me... it'll make your life easier.