Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Well the fireworks in Monroeville were pretty cool... The grand finale was incredible! I love fireworks so much. It was really nice to hang out with Matt too... There is a reason we've been friends since third grade.

Tonight was a pretty good boost... I really needed it... I do hope things start changing for me soon tho... There is a lot on the horizon.... Lots of options ahead too... I really don't understand what God is doing. Not my place to figure out tho.... I just could really use more face to face time.... Spending time with people works wonders for me.... But it just rarely happens for me.

I guess under all of the excitement that's going on I'm still hurting pretty bad. Maybe it also has to do with the fact I haven't been able to afford my medicine for the last couple weeks..... I dunno.... I just really need more interaction with people... I think that's my best medicine. I came up to PA for that reason but almost everyone ignored me.... With the exception of Matt. Maybe its because no one is interested in what I am. I can't say that I'm an outcast in my family but sometimes I am a shadow. They are proud of me for who I am and what I know but the things I get excited about don't even phase them. A family of 5 and 4 of those have an intrest in gymnastics and one is into computers. Who gets left out? Yup.. me. Not that I blame them... This is who God made me... I'm different for a reason. Its just hard lacking these physical relationships.

Well... Tomorrow is a long day... I have to get all kinds of stuff done and still be back home by 3.... This should be fun.

Hope everyone had a great 4th.... Goodnight.

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