I'm not doing well at all. I gotta be up in 3 hours and my mind is racing and I can't sleep. Why do people just throw me away? Its so easy for people to just move on and forget about me? What is it that is wrong with me? What can I change to make people want to be with me? I have to change who I am... But what should I change? I don't know.... I don't understand what it is about me. Am I ugly? Annoying? Have no life? I know I have no money so maybe that's it? Its so easy for people to get what they can out of me... And after I gave all, they move on and I'm left behind. I just don't know what to do.... What do I change? I can't be me anymore.... It just doesn't work.

I hope to God I can fall asleep and just forget about all of this... Not to mention get at least 3 hours of sleep.