So now I start another day......
Try this.... get to a point that you are so stressed you just cant take anymore and then try to sleep.... its actually not that hard to sleep but when you wake up you have a feeling that is worse than most hangovers..... That's how I feel now.... absolutely misserable....

I dont think that anyone realizes the emotional pain that I am in.... granted, I am not letting on how much pain I am in to too many people but the people that do know I think its a not-accepting-fault thing..... In order to admit that I am in an extreme amount of pain it might mean that they have to accept fault for some of it....

My biggest fear right now? That I'm not going to get through this for a long time.... In the last few days I have become a different person.... I'm not the same... stress and emotional pain apparently can do alot of damage.... damage that I never realized.....

I wanna help my friend out today and get back home to VA and just sleep the best that I can.... Somehow I am holding myself together and still functioning.... I dont know how... and I dont know for how long.....

I am not well....