Tuesday, May 10, 2005
I'm so scared.... I'm literally scared..... I dont know what to do. I need help and I need lots of prayer.... more things went wrong today... I really feel like my world is collapsing around me.... I really feel like I'm alone in it all... maybe thats not the case... but I am really scared. I have never felt this way before... I have never been actually scared of my own life... I've hated my life before and things like that but I've never been scared of it... I'm in a constant state of fear.... that im doing the wrong things... that things arent going to work out... I need so badly to hear someone say its going to be ok but there is no one saying that to me... they see it too... everyone sees it.... no one knows that its all going to be ok.... there is no evidence that its going to be ok.... I even asked some people if it was going to be ok and they changed the subject.... I'm scared.... I am really scared.