Wednesday, May 04, 2005

Decissions are going to be made in the next few weeks.... very very important and powerful decissions.... I am scared to death..... it's possible that nothing in my life will be the same after these decissions are made. There are decissions that affect Tiff and myself, my employment, my life, my walk with God, etc, etc.

It seems that God sets up check points in my life..... when I hit these checkpoints, my life completely spins around.... I dont understand it.... its hard to live that way when you are a very commiting person.... but this is just how it occurs for me. Tonight I hit one of those checkpoints.... as Tiff and I were having a very very important and scary conversation, I was being bombed with other stuff in email for unrelated decissions......

Everyone, please keep me in your prayers..... I've got alot of decissions that I need to make..... the scary part is.... my Walk with God is not where it should be to make those decissions.

1 comment:

DoOfUs125 said...

Even though I walked away from God, I can tell you this....unless you are living your life the way God wants you to he is going to keep putting these roadblocks in your life. First thing I would do is get a porn blocker, find someone to hold you accountable so that they are e-mailed when you do go into it. Second, I know it's hard, but you need to seriously sit down, turn everything off around you and ask him to show you what direction he wants you to go, even if it takes hours to just silence and talking to him. Third, I've got 4 books in mind, read them if you haven't...The Purpose Drive Life, Wild at Heart ,Wakeing the Dead, and your bible. This is the only christian advice I have for you besides just being your friend.