I have to say that after my talk last night with Carpathia's CEO I feel alot better.... My debate is still ongoing tho..... Money is an issue... its a big issue.... but then again.... God always provides...... I could go to the other place and love it...... or I could hate it..... and in that instance, im really screwed..... I know that God wants you to enjoy your labor.... and I really enjoy Carpathia..... so maybe I do need to just sit on it... put it in my head that a really huge company wanted to hire me and just sit it out. I was gaurenteed more money in December.... but almost gaurenteed more money alot sooner than that... The CEO is a really down to earth guy... really understanding... and what I didnt know is he actually made the move from PA to VA himself... so he really does understand.... and why couldnt he say "more money in 3 months" ... well, he was more worried about keeping his promise..... I saw something in that talk that I hadnt seen in a while..... Honesty..... There was no attack on me... there were no excuses... I was told like it was.... thats what matters to me.... Even though I could really use some serious relief with finances right now I dont think that was primarily what I was looking for.... what I was looking for was honesty...... and Rick showed that to me....

So where do I go? I dunno.... Either way im glad this other job is at my door.... even if I decided not to go on with it, at least I know that someone really big was actually looking at me.... it really helps when you get discouraged to think of things like that.

Please keep me in your prayers..... This is still an ongoing decission and I still cant say I exactly know what to do.....