After spending the last half hour laying in bed crying im really starting to wonder if im just destined to always be played in my life. We were just joking at pizza hut about how every girl has always messed with my head..... and you know what... maybe thats something that will never end. Im tired of being played.... I want so badly to start working on a family.... but when will I find a girl that wants me for me.... a girl that wants only me.... a girl that wont have someone else on the side.... someone who is 100% honest to me.... I just..... I just give up.... *sigh* Anyone who really wants to love someone.... please email me.... I need companionship.... I need that special girl in my life..... I guess it's all just wishful thinking.... maybe I really have given up hope this time.... :(