Frustrated... confused.... just plain out of it. I really dont understand why things happened the way they did. I still think that things should have happened differently.... I SHOULD still be with Tiff and we should be very happy together right now.... it was meant to be.... none the less, I am very happy being with Tanya and Eli. They both give me so much comfort.... sure there are things we have to work on as well.... but first thing I was thinking of today about me and Tanya.... when Tanya took me to see her mom the first time she was not thrilled.... her mom was not a fan.... she didnt take the chance to get to know me (sound familiar)..... so I was concerned... I just got out of a relationship where the parent destroyed the relationship.... ok well it wasnt ALL the parent.... but the parent had a very big influence..... anyway.... Tanya stood up to her mom and said that thats the way it was..... yaknow what..... her mom and I get along fine now.... and its not just "I'll put up with you" thing.... it is genuinely getting along..... I think back and wonder what if someone else would have done that. Maybe thats what The Keeper wanted to happen? Either way... that relationship is over... the pain of being hurt isnt over but the relationship is.... and I have an incredible girl now.... one that I know loves me and is not ashamed to say "Hey, this is Bobby.... he is my boyfriend" .... she's actually proud of it.... and ya know what... so am I :)