I'm at church right now but I needed to write about how much better I feel right now. Last night I was doing a bunch of stuff in my email and I'm not sure what I did but I clicked something and an old email from tiff came up. I just decided to read it again and it really touched me. She was explaining how she loved me and how she was sorry that she wasn't really able to show it right now. I understand things are rough for her right now. There are a few things that I really don't like how she's handling.... But I love her and I'm going to fight for this. I feel a lot better.... I just really hope that tiff would take the time to call me today. I could really use that.