As I've been babysitting this morning, ice been thinking about a lot. Its been really hard on me thinking about how I am 27 and have no sight of a wife in my future. Add to that the stuff going on with my grandfather and I start feeling bad. My mom wants to be a grandma and I want her to be one. Right now Lori and I are single and while Kari is engaged, I don't think there are kids in the near future there.
Right now I am blogging this as the sweetest baby of all time is sleeping on my arm. Its no wonder my mom wants this again. I really started thinking about me and my sisters and I also remember my dad telling me a little while ago about a member of our old church called them just to tell them that they were great parents - and they were. I think of where we are right now. Kari is the head coach of the YMCA gymnastics team. Lori is an elementary teacher - and not just any teacher but a specialist who helps children who are struggling with reading. As for me, I don't have huge groups of kids in my life but, despite how I feel sometimes, I have been able to deeply impact a few children. I just think about it and realize that my parents aren't far from Abraham and Sara who had more descendants than the sands on the shore. While my parents may not have technical grandchildren, because of who they are they have impacted hundreds of kids.... And those kids are going to impact even more.
This has to be one of the first Blogs I've written that really left me in tears. My life may not be the way that I wanted it to be but knowing that I just might be doing good in the life of this sweetheart sleeping on my (now numb) arm is more than I could have asked for. The same is true for my parents - they may have figured on having grandchildren by now but maybe someday in the (hopefully distant) future they will look down from heaven and realize that the world is a better place because of them.