I know that there is a reason that I am enduring what I am emotionally right now. Things that hurt but don't kill you really do make you stronger. I know that giving of yourself ultimately helps both those your giving to and yourself but it doesn't mean there aren't hurts and struggles along the way. It boils down to saying what you mean and meaning what you say. If you are going to be there for someone you really have to do it. Its hard sometimes but if you meant it then its what you want to do - and going through these struggles is what I want to do. I mean, no, I don't *want* the pain but I know that the pain is a requirement for a better life for both me and the people I am there for.

Please pray for me. I really need it.