He said I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
when a moment came that stopped me on a dime
and I spent most of the next days
looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
and talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
that this might really be the real end
how's it hit you when you get that kinda news
man what'd you do

and he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

He said I was finally the husband
that most the time I wasn't
and I became a friend a friend would like to have
and all the sudden going fishin
wasn't such an imposition
and I went three times that year I lost my dad
well I finally read the good book
and I took a good long hard look
at what I'd do if I could do it all again

and then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
what'd you do with it what did you do with it
what did I do with it
what would I do with it'

Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named FuManchu
and then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I watched an eagle as it was flying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying

"Live Like You Were Dying" lyrics / Tim McGraw

In high school, girls had the option of taking a child developement or parenting class or something of that sort. In the class, they were given an electronic baby to care for for something like 2 weeks.... I now realize that those electronic babies can easily be replaced with a female cockatiel.... :)

I love Lisa to death.... but she can certainly give me attitude at times :P

Quite honestly, there really hasnt been too much going on...... I did go see Stranger Than Fiction today with Carl.... and let me tell you, thsi quite possibly could be my new favorite movie.... it's rivaling Murder by Death in that category.... but this isnt just all comedy.... The thing about it is it's something that has never been done before..... keeps you guessing the whole way through. Anyway, it was an absolutely phenomenal movie and everyone should go see it...

Things at the pet store are going great. I can not tell you how much I am enjoying my job and how great all of the people I work with are. I'm able to relax much more and I just completely feel like a different person. Sure, new jobs are always somewhat relaxing because it's new and I know that over time the novelty won't be there anymore.... but the thing is, when I leave the pet store, I know that I have done something and I know that it's done and I don't have to worry about it until the next time I am there.

There is really alot on my mind.... things that God has really been showing me today but I don't think they are completed thoughts yet so I'm not going to delve into them until I feel the time is right.

God is good..... And He always will be!

No one can remind you of how horrible of a person you are like your family can.

I really wish I would have just stayed in VA and just had a nice thanksgiving with just me and Lisa.

I am kind of worried tho because I think Lisa may be getting sick and I guess my uncle is right.... I should be ashamed of myself.......

Usually this is my favorite holiday.... but not this year.... :(

On my break at Fox Mill and I never realized how good it feels to relax..... Well, how it feels to be relaxed at all really.

I never realized how much computers were killing me. There is no doubt that God gave me a gift with what I know about computers but it totally consumed my life which was obviously a healthy thing.

But honestly, I think its more than just computers.... It has a lot to do with people. There were alot of companies that I worked for who really honestly enjoyed having me.... and Ive realized that the more I interacted with customers, the more the company I worked for enjoyed having me. I am able to talk to people..... I am still very shy in some scenarios but seeing a customer come into the fish area and saying hi to them.... thats nothing for me anymore. Being able to talk about something I have knowledge in other than computers is an amazing thing..... and honestly, seeing people go home with a new pet is awesome. And thats not just fish. I sold a puppy on Saturday and just seeing the kids' face light up was a really great thing to see.......

I am so happy with my life right now..... I pray that it stays this way. God is so amazing..... He knew where I needed to be and I eventually realized that I needed to take that leap of faith.... when I did - well, here we are :)

I walk the line
Leave it all behind
I've been waiting forever
Let's go back in time
When I could read your mind
So I've been waitin'
It took a season's going by
To know it's not my fault

(Chorus)
I tried to be perfect.
Tried to be honest.
Tried to be everything that you ever wanted.
I tried to be stronger.
Tried to be smarter.
Tried to be everything but you...

It's been so long
Since you've been home
I used to wait up forever.
Used to say a prayer
Wishing you were there.
And I'm still waiting...

You told me once
You'd show up,
But I fell for that before
I fell to pieces

Then I woke up to no one
Just a picture of Jesus
And a house left in pieces
And it took a season's going by
To know it's not my fault.

Chorus

I want you
I need you
I want to believe you
I want you
I need you
I want to believe you

I tried be perfect
Tried to be honest
Tried to be everything but you...

Chorus

"Everything You Have Ever Wanted" lyrics / Hawk Nelson

Meet my new roommate, Lisa :)

I never thought the day would come that I would start feeling tired at 10:30pm and going to bed before 1am.... actually, this is the latest I have been up in 4 days..... and it feels freaking great! I worked at Fox Mill again today and then went to the data center.... again, feeling very relaxed.... and God certainly confirmed to me today that I made the best choice, no matter how illogical it seemed.... God's timing is incredible. And all this that went on, I found time to talk to a genuine "real live geek girl" who -- get this -- is from ashburn and currently lives in Pittsburgh.....

Amazing, strange, and VERY cool stuff is happening.... I'm lovin' it! (no, not McDonalds)

Just 2 days ago I was going over some information on marine fish at work and going over some stuff about starfish and I remembered something I learned back in science class in middle school. Starfish will regenerate if they lose a part of their body, however, if you cut them in half, you literally have 2 starfish that will regenerate. What I remember is how fisherman had lots of problems with starfish so it was an unwritten rule that if you saw a starfish, you picked it up, broke it in half, and threw it back in the water.... what those fisherman didnt realize is that they were actually building a much stronger starfish community.

I think this is what is happening with the church today. Satan is attacking so many churches and it seems that he is succeding at what he is doing but he still hasnt realized that when he attacks one of God's family, he just creates a scenario that brings more people into the kingdom.... In so many cases, Christian's souls regenerate. It's horrible when things happen with a pastor sinning.... considering what happened in Colorado especially.... Does this really make the church look bad? I guess it depends on who you are. If you are someone that is heart and soul against the church, then I'm sure it does -- but its not like anything else doesnt look bad in their eyes either. I think what happens when all of these "scandals" happen is that it becomes a testimony that Christians are actually real human beings -- which seems to be a very common misconception among the non-believers -- and mostly because we feel the need to act like we really are "holier than thou".

Think about it.... what's going to happen to the next church that has a "pastorial scandal?" .... Call it a hunch, but I think revival.... Satan may be attacking people and it may look bad but it's really producing something much more amazing.

When all of us Christians realize that it's not a bad thing to be human, maybe we'll be given a little more respect from those who are not Christians.