ok, so I was going to leave to head to PA tonight, however, I just checked the weather and after 8am there is only a 10% chance of rain.... and since im taking my sammy back and leaving it there, my last long trip in it for a while should be without the roof, right? :)

Wow, I love people.... thought this was humorous enough to post :)


06/29 [20:15] lil_lady_172004: So here's the deal...You get to ask me *1 Question* any one question, no matter how crazy, inappropriate, or just random, and I promise to answer it 100% truthfully..send to your whole list an see wat people have to ask you ..
06/29 [21:59] bblboy54: you sent me a thing saying I could ask you a question
06/29 [21:59] bblboy54: *shrug*
06/29 [21:59] lil_lady_172004: do u know my name
06/29 [21:59] bblboy54: I think I may have met you on hot or not
06/29 [21:59] lil_lady_172004: all ok ask ur question
06/29 [22:00] bblboy54: don't really have a question
06/29 [22:00] bblboy54: lol
06/29 [22:00] lil_lady_172004: well thats wat ur suppose tyo ask me from where i sent u that thing
06/29 [22:00] bblboy54: ummm.... whats your favorite movie
06/29 [22:01] lil_lady_172004: i'm her boyfriend dude
06/29 [22:01] bblboy54: ok
06/29 [22:01] bblboy54: wtf
06/29 [22:01] lil_lady_172004: yeah i'm her boyfriend
06/29 [22:01] bblboy54: ok
06/29 [22:02] bblboy54: you sent me the question
06/29 [22:02] bblboy54: i asked
06/29 [22:02] bblboy54: whatever
06/29 [22:02] lil_lady_172004: i don't have one
06/29 [22:02] lil_lady_172004: dude i'm her boyfriend so leave me alone and her
06/29 [22:02] bblboy54: then quit randomly Im'ing me

Net neutrality amendment dies / Telecommunications bill goes to Senate without provision sought by Web firms

Listen people.... this is serious! If you're not calling your senators and lawmakers then you are 100% to be blamed when Verizon and Comcast are charging you an assload of money or when your favorite internet sites go out of business because they cant afford to pay Verizon and Comcast the money they demand. I apologize for the language but if you dont understand how serious this is then you HAD BETTER be looking into it. If network neutrality is taken away, there is only one group of people that win: Those that work for companies like Verizon, Comcast, AT&T, etc... you know, the ones who already are raping you for fees that you dont even understand.

If you havent called your senator, do it now! This is a really serious issue.... If you dont understand how serious, please email me....

I cant understand what it is about me that people dont like. Anything that has to do with interaction with people in an intimate way just never seems to go well for me. When I worked at Computer Connections and at Carpathia, customers loved me.... they really appriciated my hard work and effort. But on the work side of things, as time went out, I was hated more and more it seems. Then you go back to the ever-popular relationship issues.... no matter what, I could never make or keep my girlfriend happy.... Granted, the majority of them were girls that were clearly not for me and it wasnt supposed to work out... but with Tiff... what happened? No matter what I tried, I could never make her happy.... Nothing I ever did was the right thing or was it ever good enough. Nothing I ever did was appriciated but only looked at as an interferance. I just dont understand. This is what I'm having a really hard time coping with. I mean, my goals in life are to serve, to be the best husband I can be, as well as the best father I can be.... but I can't make people happy so how am I supposed to carry out my goals? So I'm left with a pointless and worthless life.... I feel meaningless in almost every way. Sure, I'm positive about alot of things.... I have a good job and a place to live... and I am helping at my church which does bring me some joy... but at the end of the day, I feel worthless because I cant be surrounded by happy people... actually, I cant be surrounded by people at all. I was so happy when I left Carpathia because I'd have the ability to actually hang out with friends.... but when I left and had the ability, all of a sudden, my friends dissappeared. I dont understand it. I want to hang out... I try... I try real hard.... but no one is interested. I supposed im just not exciting to be around? I just dont understand it.... and worse yet, I really felt appriciated at my current job but now I'm not so sure.... but honestly, that is probably just because of how I feel... and there is alot going on at work as well.... Actually, I think the fact that I'm working alot is the reason why I cant say that I'm full blown depressed.... but then again, working alot is doing its part towards killing me as well.... but if I dont work, I dont have friends to hang out with... I dont have anything to do. So then I become bored.... so why stop working to take some time off when I dont have anything to do with my time? All I end up doing is making up something to do... and I stress myself out more.

I just wish I could make people happy. I wish I had something to offer.... I wish my life had meaning.

Just checking in to say I'm still alive... tho I'm pretty numb
emotionally. While I'm doing well and not really down, I am just out of
it.... seems not much makes me happy anymore... nothing to ever look
forward to. I dunno.... I just feel really odd.... Its like I just
wait and wait and wait for something exciting to happen, but it never
does. When I do get out and do something, its by myself so even if
there was an opportunity to have some fun and relax there is no one to
share it with -- and for me, if I dont have someone to share the
experience with, then its not worth as much and its sometimes worth alot
less than even that.... The hardest problem to deal with is not being
able to explain in words how I feel. Here I am writing this post....
wanting to say something but not knowing how to say it or really, what
it even is. I dunno... I'm alive and I'm getting some stuff
accomplished, but its just going through the motions I guess.... on the
bright side, I guess I cant say I'm depressed.... *shrug*

Marylanders for a Second Crossing, Inc.

Hey, I'm not a Marylander but I support these guys! :)

Wired News: Gov't Break a Law? Change It

Adult Resignation
To Whom It May Concern:

I am hereby officially tendering my resignation as an adult.

I have decided I would like to accept the responsibilities of a 6 year old again.

I want to go to McDonald's and think that it's a four star restaurant.
I want to sail sticks across a fresh mud puddle and make ripples with rocks.
I want to think M&Ms are better than money, because you can eat them.
I want to play kickball during recess and paint with watercolors in art.
I want to lie under a big Oak tree and run a lemonade stand with my friends on a hot summers day.
I want to return to a time when life was simple.
When all you knew were colors, addition tables and simple nursery rhymes. But that didn't bother you, because you didn't know what you didn't know and you didn't care.
When all you knew was to be happy because you didn't know all the things that should make you worried and upset.
I want to think that the world is fair. That everyone in it is honest and good.
I want to believe that anything is possible.
Somewhere in my youth...I matured and I learned too much.

I learned of nuclear weapons, war, prejudice, starvation and abused children.
I learned of lies, unhappy marriages, suffering, illness, pain and death.
I learned of a world where men left their families to go and fight for our country, and returned only to end up living on the streets... begging for their next meal.
I learned of a world where children knew how to kill...and did.

What happened to the time when we thought that everyone would live because we didn't grasp the concept of death?
When we thought the worst thing in the world was if someone took the jump rope from you or picked you last for kickball?

I want to be oblivious to the complexity of life and be overly excited by little things once again. I want to return to the days when reading was fun and music was clean. When television was used to report the news or for family entertainment and not to promote sex, violence and deceit.

I remember being naive and thinking that everyone was happy because I was.
I would walk on the beach and only think of the sand between my toes and the prettiest seashell I could find.
I would spend my afternoon climbing trees and riding my bike.

I didn't worry about time, bills or where I was going to find the money to fix my car.
I used to wonder what I was going to do or be when I grew up, not worry about what I'll do if this doesn't work out.

I want to live simple again.
I don't want my day to consist of computer crashes, mountains of paperwork, depressing news, how to survive more days in the month than there is money in the bank, doctor bills, gossip, illness and loss of loved ones.
I want to believe in the power of smiles, hugs, a kind word, truth, justice, peace, dreams, the imagination, mankind and making angels in the snow.

I want to be 6 again.