Well VA does it again......

My sammy did not pass emissions in VA and I was given an estimate of $900 to fix. Wanna talk about being pissed off? A perfectly good vehicle I can't use because VA wants more money. My waiver would be $620 so why do that and have it fail next time too? My long term plan was to get a Jasper engine for it which is about $1900 .... So dad is meeting me at my apartment and I'm gonna sign the title over to him. Since I'm with geico now, dropping the insurance on that car will save me money. It is at my dad's house now. We will decide later if dad is going to register it or just title it. It may pass emissions in PA. I dunno.... But it makes more sense to wait for a Jasper engine before I put half the cost of the engine into fixing emissions. Maybe ill soon move to a state that doesn't have emissions? Oh well.... Life goes on, right?

2 Corinthians 9:7
Every man according as he purposeth in his heart, [so let him give]; not grudgingly, or of necessity: for God loveth a cheerful giver.

I fully realize that God knows my heart and that that's what is important but right now it is such a struggle for me not to feel insignifgant..... When I'm surrounded constantly by the notion that my thoughts, ideas, and feelings are the least of importance, it makes it hard. I'm a voice that needs to be silenced - at least that's the attitude I always get.

I'm trying.... And I will continue to try my best.

We are now on our way out of LA and heading back to VA.

I certainly did not sleep well last night. I guess there is just so much on my mind.... I really don't know where anything is headed in my life.

And this morning I wake up and see messages from tanya that say she needs help with her computer.... Then she goes on to say that she is sorry for being so distant. This so much adds to what I feel: that I'm a good friend when someone needs me. The thing is, if it wasn't for Patti, I wouldn't have seen Eli at all in about 2 months. I just don't get it.... I'm more than happy to help anyone and everyone.... I just wish I had a little more support.... But God will sustain me..... I just wish that I didn't feel used all the time. Thankfully I know this New Orleans trip was appriciated by so many people.

Now that this part of my life is ending, I can't help but wonder what is next. Some amazing things were shown to me down here. The church we were working with down here is currently working with another pastor - the plan is a city wide church.... Different meetings with different styles (baptist, pentecostal, etc) but one unified church.... Its the book of acts in action and its been my prayer forever.... I also found that this church has a member that was ex-homosexual and has contacts with many homosexuals..... Wow.... Anyone seeing something else? Mix that with my intrest in the supernatural and the fact that new orleans has a lot of demon-related things..... Well... I just wonder why I am here right now. What is my future? I don't know.

A lot has been going through my mind..... I'm worried about a lot of people around me...... The phone call from my aunt is still going through my mind.... The problems tiff is having is going through my mind..... The pain of new orleans is going through my mind.... My own financial problems..... And of course VA inspection and my sammy are not getting along...... I'm just so concerned about so much.... And I wish I could cuddle up with someone and be told that its going to be ok... To be told "i love you" .... I long for a lot but I try my best to wait on God. And until the desires of my heart come true (and of course after), I will do what the Lord asks of me.

I wonder what state I will live in next and who will next tell me they love me.... If either are applicable.

We have finished our last project.... I really wish we could do more but I think we all have worn ourselves completely out.....

Another job completed.... Now on to another house to do some inside cleaning.......

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