Years ago someone stole our large outdoor trampoline.... My family was shocked when we realized this.... who would go through the trouble of stealling a trampoline that large? Well... I no longer wonder...


These must be the ones

"Basic Principals: There are none" - Will Smith in "Hitch"

Now more than ever I know this is true. When it comes to love you cant just say "this is the way it goes" ... because it doesnt. So many people over the last few years told me that tiff was just playing me.... reasons? They applied "basic principals" to the relationship Tiff and I had. What kept us together with everyone telling me I was an idiot? Love..... What brought us back together after both of us threw the other person away? Love.... What is going to keep us together when we hurt the other person again? Love.....

Sure there is going to be more pain.... and yes, there are still quite a few things that are bugging me.... but I cant just say thats the end. I want to spend my life with Tiff more than anything else.... so I'm going to work towards that.... and over time, those things that bug me will get better. The bottom line is we love each other... we have loved each other... and we will love each other....

After 15 years... oh well, I guess it really has only been about 3 or 4.... anyway... after lots of work and alot of pain... my dreams have come true. I now have a girlfriend.... and she is the best girl on the face of the earth.

Yes, Tiff and I are official now.... and I couldnt be happier. My life is just.... im just so happy with everything right now. I have my own place... I have a great job... and now I have a great girl..... and I love her very much.

Thank You Lord, for all that you have done!

Well Tiff and I talked a little today.... it sounds like she really wants to make things better. I pray thats the case.... the last thing I want is to lose her.... but some things just need to be taken care of..... despite everything I still can not wait until this weekend so I can see her. I love her so much.... things are confusing right now..... "No Pain, No gain" ... right?

I tried to call Tiff a little bit ago but I couldnt get a hold of her.... finally I found a friend to talk to.... and helped me feel alot better. Maybe I'm just missing my feelings.... I'm surrendering my feelings to Tiff.... and just holding on to what I think should be but I'm totally neglecting myself. I really wish I could have talked to Tiff..... I needed to talk to her.... but ... maybe I just need to listen to my head a little bit. I have been listening to my heart for so long... and completely.... but maybe I have been totally ignoring my head..... I mean, your heart needs to be primary but you cant totally ignore your head..... I dunno... I'm so confused and scared right now.... I wish I had someone to just hold right now.... but I dont. I'm still at work... could be here for a while... and the hardest thing to do right now is to keep from crying. My mind is just going so fast. I dont like this... not at all.

Why are the ones you love the most the ones that make you feel like crap?

Oh my gosh! Just saw an ad on TV.... and I didnt know whether to believe it or not.... but sure enough, it is true.... I'm close to a Checkers..... *drools*


Check it out!

Well other than sleeping in again and missing church, today was a pretty decent day. Mom, Dad, Aunt Kathy, and Grandma all came down to visit for a while. It was nice to see them. There really isnt too much to say tho. I was going to go skiing tomorrow but I decided I should probably save the gas money since I'm trying to get stuff going financially here. I am really looking forward to this weekend tho because I'll get to see Tiff.... she's back from Kentucky too.... just talked to her for a min when she got back to tell me she made it. She said she had an awesome time... I cant wait to hear all about it.

Well, its bed time for me.... nite nite