I'm up way to early.... but its good.
I've been talking to Tiff for about the past hour... I know what people mean when they say that making up is the best part about a fight... even though Tiffany and I really didnt have I fight... I now understand that. Alot of it was misunderstanding (and stupid lag on text messaging).
One thing that I guess kinda bugged me was that she said she was going to keep Jim's ring. Maybe I dont fully understand that.... but we talked about it for a long time... at first she was irritated with me but I think eventually she understood where I was coming from. Granted, it bugs me... but I also dont think she could keep it for Jim's sake. She said she was going to talk to Jim about it... I hope that he will understand too... ultimately, I hope when she comes home she gives the ring back. I want her and Jim to be friends but I just think keeping the ring is a bad idea. We'll see what happens.
Ultimately, Im more in love with Tiffany today than I have ever been... it just keeps getting stronger and stronger.... yesterday was bad but im glad that Tiff and I have this ability to get things out in the open.

132, 164 ,162... those were my games tonight. I could have done better but I am actually shocked I did that well... with the kind of mood I was in. My team won 5 of 7 points.
More thoughts on the Tiff thing.... in one of the emails she sent me today she said something like I was too happy for the situation.. WTF... what the hell is that supposed to mean? Am I not supposed to be happy? Also she said that she really isnt as happy as she has been letting on... first of all, she wants to be honest with me... then she lies about being happy... if she's not happy with the decission she made, then maybe she shouldnt have made it. I dont know.... I'm just really frustrated and the more this day went on the more frustrated I got.... especially during the first game... I kept missing easy shots and just got more and more pissed about everything.... then also today in one the text messages she sent me she said f*ing... ok, she did censor it just like that, and it wasnt directed at me or used negatively.... but thats just not her. Whats going on? Well thank God I can go to bed in a few mins here.... I never have looked so forward to going to bed... the hell with this day.

Im really pretty frustrated right now... I guess most of it stems from curiosity of whats going on with Tiff... she was in a bad mood tonight and she was texting me at work.... I told her I love her and I didnt hear from her for about 5 mins until I sent a message to her asking her if she was mad at me... then she said no and couldnt understand why I would say that... THEN she said "I love you too" ... that just really bugs me... maybe its stupid.... I dunno... after that she started talking to me again and it really cheered me up... then I get home and get an email from her saying that we need to talk about some things but she didnt say what... The last couple of weeks she would say something that kinda clued me into something being wrong and then she'd immediately follow that by "I dont want to talk about it right now" ... Id want nothing more than to sit down face to face and talk to her but that just cant happen... we need to talk about stuff now... I'm tired of having these scared and anxious feelings. Oh well, I'm gonna listen to some Linkin Park to get some frustration out and then I'll go bowling and try to have a good time.

Ok, so Steve is really keeping me in line... pointing out that I havent blogged since Tuesday.... I guess I better put an entry in for his entertainment (and anyone else that actually reads this) :)

I guess the reason why I havent really blogged recently is nothing new is really going on. Tiff and I are definately drawing closer and I am really happy about the way things are going. She got the flowers that I sent her, on... hmm I think it was Tuesday that she got them... she was soo happy... it was worth the money... by far.... but I still question... why do they cost so much? I mean they are natural and you can grow them anywhere... *shrug* regardless, it was well worth it seeing as how much she liked them.... im glad I boosted her spirits a little bit... she got them on a day that she was having a rough time anyway so that worked out.
Other than the typical Tiff stuff, there is the typical Pizza Hut stuff. On Thursday night I ended up closing by myself in the kitchen... yea, that was fun. The closing cook never showed up... and of course it was one of my new hires.... I'm glad Tim and Jeff are working out really well because otherwise I'd feel like a failure... It looks like Bruce and Stephanie are on their way out the door... which is basically a good thing. We need employees that we can rely on and that actually come to work. And oh yea, how can I forget that I broke Steve's bear.... ok, I really felt bad about that one. I wrote a note in the manager log that his bear got drunk and then I opened the attic and had him peeking out of the hole in the ceiling looking down at a bunch of empty beer bottles.... well, when I first put him up there he ended up falling from the attic so I think thats what may have done it.... today he was talking fine but the last second he would stutter (in case you havent figured it out, its a bear with a pull string). Tonight I told Diana that I broke it and went to show her and it worked fine... so maybe his hangover wore off *shrug* ... I hope it continue to work because I do feel bad. Of course it wont stop me... more pranks to come :)
Tonight after we closed Diana and I sat around talking for quite a while... it was really good to talk to someone... I really consider her a good friend....
Well, I think thats about all I can update everyone on right now. I'll blog tommorow even if its just my bowling scores.

What a night! I decided to drop off a copy of Win XP for Matt at Pizza Hut tonight.... I think I stopped by there around 6 or so... I walk in and matt goes "punch in" ... I wasnt doing anything tonight anyway so I figured i'd help them out. There was a fundraiser for tonight for a club at Greensburg Salem High School. Usually our fundraisers are major flops because no one cares enough to promote them. This we were expecting about 15 extra checks or so... which is more than our usual 10 checks but not alot. Typically for the day on a Tuesday we have about 80 checks total... tonight we had 200. Apparently a teach at the high school decided to give anyone extra credit who brought in a recipt from pizza hut tonight. Pretty much the entire high school was at our hut tonight. It was crazy. Its been a long time since I've seen that store that busy. Matt and I both agreed on one thing... when we were in high school the girls did not look like that. Wow!... so at least the scenary was good. Really tho, I dont care... I have an amazingly cute girl and I will be happy with her for the rest of my life... I wouldnt want anyone else. Since I did just stop in to drop something off, I wasnt in uniform so I was working in my strong bad t shirt... its amazing how many people actually love strong bad... I got alot of compliments. Oh well, im pretty much beat from tonight so I think Im gonna call it a night here shortly.

Aside from taking care of my medical stuff, Dr. Gaul and I had a talk about whats been going on in my life today. We talked about the Tiffany situation and how she broke up with Jim last night. I really liked the commend he made... he said that I have really been paitient and waited and now God is going to bless me. Well, he may be right, but I still have alot more practice of paitence to do. This situation is really tough right now. The worst thing happened to me.... twice I told Tiff that I love her and she simply responded "I know" ... Im glad that she knows but when I dont hear "I love you" back, it really bugs me. *sigh* ... I feel like just going to lay down and stop talking to tiff right now but I know that I need to be there for her... I just hate not hearing I love you... it really bugs me. I hope this situation doesnt last long and that Tiff and I will be a couple soon... I really need that. I do love her... ALOT.

143, 154, 139.... SUCKS... *sigh* not a good night... we only won one game too.... oh well... you cant win them all.
Also today, i come home from lunch and look at my mail... mail from AES... my student loans are scheduled for repayment shortly... looks like next month I'll be paying on that... then I open my car insurance bill... it went up $31/month.... *sigh* I only had a small accident but apparently I previously had a huge discount because I have had no accidents and I lost that... so now im paying over $90 a month for insurance... that just plain sucks
And now for the main event. Tiff broke up with Jim tonight. After she did it she called me crying... mainly because she was worried about him. I guess he just kept saying "I want to die, I want to die" ... it hurts me to see her cry.... not to mention I feel like shit about this whole situation. I never intended for any of this to happen... it just did. I asked her tonight if she wanted me to walk and let her and Jim continue on... she said no... it was done with and then said that she loved me. I still feel like I destroyed someone's life.... and this really hurts after watching what my aunt did to my uncle... I know that this sucks for Jim... and I really feel bad. To add to it all I talked to Jason about it and he wasnt supportive at all... I guess I cant expect him to be... he thinks im wrong... and I know that.... I guess I see his point too... thats why I feel like shit.... I know this is all gonna blow over and Tiff and I will be fine... I know that we are meant to be... I know that we will be happy together.... I still also hope that Tiff's mom can learn to like me too... I know that she hates my guts right now too.... this situation sucks, but I know that its moving in the right direction so im gonna try to get through this.... and I'll be praying for Tiff and mainly for Jim.... I hope God brings Jim a very special girl into his life soon.... I also hope that Tiff doesnt hold herself responsible for what happened... she did what she had to do....

Well, we met "the new guy" tonight. For those of you who have not been up to speed, my aunt and uncle have recently become divorced -- through no fault of my uncle's. Tonight we met my aunt's new boyfriend... ok, I must say now... fiance.... yes, thats right. They are getting married in December... a mere 3 months after the divorce was completed. Well tonight the entire family met Rodger, the new guy. I guess there was nothing that I really had against him, but he doesnt belong. The good part was when my aunt and rodger left uncle tim came and joined us. Literally the place lit up when he came in... even my aunt jenny said how much better things felt now that he was there... after he got there everyone started having fun. I dont know why my aunt has to be such an idiot... destroying the lives of her kids (my cousins), my uncle, and my entire family. It's heart breaking. But, none-the-less, we made it through.