Smile- Chris Rice

How far are you, how close am I
I know your words are true and I don't feel them inside
Still I believe you'll never leave
So where are you now

You're all I have, You're all I know
Your breath is breathing in my soul
Still I am gasping, aching, asking
Where are you now

Cause I just wanna be with You
I just want this waiting to be over
I just want to be with You
And it helps to know the Day is getting closer

Every minute takes an hour
Every inch feels like a mile
Til I won't have to imagine
And I finally get to see You smile

My journey's here, but my heart is There
So I dream and wait, and keep the faith, while You prepare
Our destiny, til You come back for me
Oh, please make it soon!

Cause I just wanna be with You
I just want this waiting to be over
I just want to be with You
And it helps to know the Day is getting closer

Every minute takes an hour
Every inch feels like a mile
Til I won't have to imagine
And I finally get to see You smile

I just wanna be with You
I just want this waiting to be over
I just want to be with You
And it helps to know the Day is getting closer

I just wanna be with You
I just want this waiting to be over
I just want to be with You
And it helps to know the Day is getting closer

Every minute takes an hour
Every inch feel like a mile
Til I won't have to imagine
And I finally get to see You

Every minute takes an hour
Every inch feel like a mile
Til I won't have to imagine
And I finally get to see You smile

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For the first time in quite a few months I am not able to fall right asleep. This used to be a serious problem for me but has been under control for a while. I dont think the problem is resurfacing, this is just a bad night. My mind keeps racing about the whole Jason thing. I am really hurt. I keep thinking about what I should do to fix the situation.... but, what can I do? I need to put Pizza Hut above eicomm.... Alot has been going through my mind about it.... Im thinking of telling Jason that he should maybe find someone else to do his contract work. I dont want to do that.... I really enjoying doing the work for eicomm.... and I can definately use the money.... but, I dont want it to get between our friendship. Years ago I lost a best friend over a computer job.... I dont want it to happen again. That other person was not a Christian... Jason is.... so I hope that it doesnt come to that. I just hope that Jason rethinks what he said to me. I dont understand how he can call me unreliable.... I've done alot of work for eicomm.... when customers had problems and couldnt get a hold of jason, I took care of the problem as best I could... or at least calmed the customer down until they could get ahold of jason. Many times he needed something done in a weeks notice and I worked with Steve (my manager) at Pizza Hut to figure out how to rearrange the schedule so that I could help Jason out. I think that Pizza Hut and myself has been extremely fair and accomodating.... but December is just a bad month. I realize that Jason doesnt really understand what its like to work for someone.... especially in the food service industry (in december)..... but I wish he would at least try to understand. This is not my fault... is it? I cant risk my full time job over a one day a month job.... it just doesnt make sense.... but if I lose a friendship over this..... *sigh* I'm gonna go try to sleep some more.

This day has, for the most part, sucked.
I didnt go to lunch with Jim and Jason today because Jason really pissed me off. He wants me to go down to VA for him in the next couple of weeks and it just isnt going to happen. I am finally going on vacation... the first one for me in about 4 years. As a result I had to fight for days off at work... plus for new years eve and day so I could spend time with Tiff. Steve at work has bent over backwards for me and I really appriciate it. I cant request anything else off this month... its the worst month to do anything.... its our busiest. Jason had the chance to have me full time and he passed it up. I'm not bitter over that at all.. it probably all worked out for the best.... but he needs to realize that he doesnt have me full time. He then continue to call me unreliable and then told me that I just didnt want to go down to VA for him. Far from the case. I could use the money and would love to go down there but I cant risk my full time job for a job that I do once I month. I dont want to lose my work for eicomm, but I have to give Pizza Hut the priority. And if Jason gets sore over this, thats just sad. Steve has already changed schedules to free up time for me to go down to VA for Jason. I think that Pizza Hut has been MORE than fair... it just isnt going to work this time... and for him to put words in my mouth... thats just wrong. Jason has said things before that have upset me... the situation with tiff upset me.... but its ok because I understood where he was coming from.... this is the first time that he ever actually hurt me. I'm really upset and crushed at this point. It's not easy when you are hurt by one of your best friends.
That was just the main thing... there are other situations including the present I bought for Tiff, and the vacation it's self.... Lori wants me to request the 20th off too now.... this all goes right back to the Pizza Hut thing.... I cant just ask for another day off... I talked to Steve and he wants me to try everything to work on the 20th... I cant blame him... he's done enough already.... I just hope I'm not pissing him off with this.
I just want to crawl in a hole right now and ignore that people exsist.... I wish Tiff was here... I could really use some time with her.....

And today President Bush himself took a shot at Pittsburgh's roads! For those who dont know, Bush visited Pittsburgh today and at one point in his speach he said that one thing he would do as mayor of this city is fill the pot holes....

Nothing really exciting happened today.... I did pick up me and Lori's skis. My skis ended up not costing me as much as I thought they were going to. We are less than 2 weeks away from our ski trip... I cant wait. Other than getting my skis, today was just a typical day off.

Anticipation is also building for Tiff to come home. We both feel that we can not live apart any longer.... kinda reassures me... its less than a month and she'll be in my arms!

160, 196, 157.... This is the first night in a long time that I ended up getting my average all 3 games. I am very satisfied with the way I bowled. My team won 5 of the 7 points, so we're happy about that too.
I really dont have much more to say so I'm gonna say "I LOVE TIFFANY" and then get myself to bed. My sinuses are bugging me pretty bad.

Disney faces critics at opportune time, analysts say
Its about time someone stands up to Eisner. Disney is getting out of hand. This article doesnt show the content of a letter from Roy to Eisner but it gives a run down of whats going on. Go, Roy, Go!

Wow... thats all to be said after tonight. We did over $1600 in sales today.... thats about $400 over our forecasted plan... and we were short a person because someone called off. Not only did he call off, but he was the closer so after around 8:15, me and Diana were the only people working.... while trying to clean up after the disaster that struck earlier. It was not pretty. Typically from 5-6pm on a Sunday we will do around $200 in sales at which point we have 5 people working in the store.... tonight we did $416 with 4 people in the store. It was a crazy night. Well, I have to be back there at 11:30 tomorrow so I'm gonna get myself to bed. Good night.